thoughts about nirvana 2

A Long Pause, and then this.

Outside Shang. We are only two in this balcony. Me and another guy. The shadows of the potted palm trees shroud us from the 2pm sun.

Can I attain nirvana under the shade of the palm plant, like how Buddha attained it under the Bodhi Tree?

And now we are three.

To live in the present, and not mind time.
To detach self from the past and future, to be void of worries, and to be cleansed of memories.
To focus on the city sounds. Skidding of cars. Under the slightly overcast sky.
To feel the cigarette against my dry lips, and the smooth sliding of pen against paper.
To be in the present, and the present alone.
And to hear the rustling of the finger-like leaves, as reply.
To be hyperconscious.
To pause…
To revel in stillness of body and thought.
To feel alive.

How should we live life? So bodies are conceived into this world of expectations and obligations. The things we do, we do partly because the world expects us to. Even the most mundane tasks are according to norms: eat during breakfast, lunch and dinner. Sleep at night. Be active in the morning.

The janitor who is in the balcony with me is arranging the chairs and cleaning up cigarette butts, because it is part of his job. Why do his job? To get paid. Because he needs money to live.

In a sense, are we not puppets of society? A man-made society driven by an invisible hand?

Four words: inertia to status quo.


thoughts about nirvana

Neuroanatomist Jill Bolte Taylor shared in her TED Talk the scientific answer to attaining nirvana: letting go of the past and the future.

So if I want to achieve the ever-elusive peace of mind— nirvana— now, I need to forget everything about the past. I need to sweep away the old pains and pleasures. And I need to consciously disconnect myself from the future, including the repercussions of my present’s actions.

Unwrinkle the brow.
And connect with the world.

But it ain’t easy to attain. We are conceived to a culture of societal norms, rules, and obligations. And it is not easy to severe the self from the expectations, especially when it fulfills our physiological needs [and now Maslow’s pyramid makes so much sense].

It must be then that nirvana is the anti-thesis of the world’s expectations. -_-
Sad? Yes. But I think once in a while it is forgivable to experience the disconnect. Or the delightful intense connect to the present.

Tara na sa nirvana?

On a lighter totally unrelated note, don’t you think sneezes and yawns are cousins…